such a surreal time in life where that official countdown starts, something about your relationships matures and changes, and happy tears are waiting to fall at any moment.
To say that I wasn’t expecting it is a lie - although the moment was a complete surprise. You see, since the moment I met Josh, I somehow knew that someday in the future I would be making the switch to ‘fiance’ and then to ‘husband’. People always said that when you meet the person you’re supposed to be with you’ll just ‘know’… and boy are they right. I realize why it’s so hard to explain how you know - it just happens! Yet, that day, that hour, that place, that ring… MY ring… I had no clue it was about to happen.
I woke up from a text from my handsome man wondering if I wanted to go over to the coffee shop and hang out. Now, I LOVE coffee… but there is something about the small-town Quadra coffee shops that is the perfect experience. They are somewhere that feels like home. We talked about the future, laughed at life, and talked about how the summer was coming to a close and our time together was coming to an end. Those times I get to spend with Josh are always my favourite. Enjoying a delicious americano and listening to a whole album of Louis Armstrong and Ella Fitzgerald playing in the background… now that’s what romance is made of.
We lingered for a couple of hours before deciding we should probably head back. Next on the agenda was a hike. We drove to the Chinese Mountains, and as soon as we arrived, the rain stopped. Perfect. Despite a chest infection, my lungs allowed me to make it to the top, and I’m so glad they did - the view was gorgeous. Quadra has got to be one of the most beautiful islands on the planet! We rested and enjoyed the gorgeous view for half an hour until we saw some luminous clouds dumping rain on Campbell River, and we decided to make a run for it before they came over to us. Down we went! And we made it. Jumped into the car 5 minutes before it started pouring. Although I was already quite wet after I foolishly told Josh I “needed some water” to which he kindly squirted water from our water bottle all down my back! No feeling sorry for me though - I got him back ;)
Now, I was quite tired. My chest infection was tiring me out, and I expended all of my energy on our hike. So I got home and collapsed in bed. Although not even 10 minutes later Josh peeks in and tells me that I can’t rest, because he made reservations at a beautiful resort on Quadra for dinner! How can I not all of sudden have a new reserve of energy and excitement?! Now, I don’t have many nice clothes packed away for camp, so I asked Josh to help me choose something he liked. Unbeknownst to me, he was helping me choose the outfit he would propose to me in. Perfect. After a delightful meal and a glass of wine, we decided to walk along the beach. Seriously, this is the most gorgeous beach ever. Even though it was just sprinkling with rain, the sights, sounds, and smell of the ocean is so peaceful. We wandered down and sat to enjoy the surroundings for a little while. This beach holds some of my absolute favourite memories with Josh… and I remember that feeling of utter contentment as I sat there that night with him. (thinking about that moment is tempting those happy tears to start falling!)
It started raining a little bit harder so we stood up to leave. We walked for about a minute until I made us stop. The clouds had opened up in front of us and the sun was peeking through just enough to shine its rays right down… one of the sights that reminds me most of God’s love, glory, and immense beauty as heaven’s light seems to directly shine down to earth. We stopped to admire God’s beauty, and be reminded of how thankful we were to have Him in our lives - in control, loving us, and planning all things for our good.
Now, more Joshua sneakiness. Because of the rain he looked over and said “oh shoot, the rain is smudging your makeup - here let me fix it” - as he rubbed off the ‘smudges’ he told me to close my eyes so he could get the rest off… yet when I opened my eyes, he was not wiping the makeup off his hands, he was down on one knee looking up at me with those gorgeous, loving eyes. I wish I could’ve paused that moment and continued to have my heart fill up with love and joy, but I don’t have to - each day my love for Josh grows, matures, deepens, and fills my heart all over again in a lasting, solid way.
He reminded me of his love for me… and asked me those important words “will you marry me?” and through my myriad of tears I laughed and said “OF COURSE I WILL!” Then he slipped this beautiful, hand-picked, mystery of a ring around my finger and I truly gasped. Of all the rings I had seen, this was IT. This was the ring. I wouldn’t have been able to pick it out myself, but he had somehow chosen it. The ring that was perfect for me. I absolutely LOVE being able to say that he picked it out without any input or knowledge on my part - and I am blessed to know that my handsome fiance put time and effort into choosing the perfect ring. And now I wear this ring - the symbol of my love and commitment to this man for the rest of my life. The man who loves me despite me. Who continuously models Christ in ways that still blow me away and bring me to my knees in thanksgiving and worship to our Heavenly Father. I am so thankful to be engaged to the most selfless, unconditionally loving, hardworking, genuine man I know. Someone who effortlessly puts others first, and in whom has a character that changes others hearts and shows them Christ. I am so proud of all that he is. :)
I know that being engaged, having a beautiful ring, and enjoying a continuous feeling of ‘being in love’ has become an ultimate goal and determinant of love in our society today which makes me so sad. Yes - it was beautiful, wonderful, and definitely one of my favourite moments of my entire life. But those moments when Josh looks at me and says “of course I forgive you” for something I’ve done to annoy him for the 100th time, or the way I have learned to laugh at my own mistakes and not take the world so seriously… and for the way we’ve chosen to love each other through the times when it seemed like there wasn’t any hope left - those are the beautiful, messy, wonderful times that I can’t wait to share with him for the rest of my life. I know marriage is beautiful and fun, and I know marriage can be tough and painful… but I wear this ring to symbolize my commitment to both. The laying down of my rights and my life to love and serve him. A symbol my covenant to him for the rest of my life. Out of pain, out of fighting, out of learning the hard, ugly parts of yourself… out of love, and joy, and laughter… through this word we call ‘love’, I know I am making steps towards being like my Father - and that is our ultimate goal.